Honestly, I removed my blog for a month or so mainly because I didn't think anyone would actually read it. After that hiatus, I realize that even if people don't read whatever I put up, who cares! I'm sure there are people that do lurk and never comment, and that's fine. I just have to keep a constant Note To Self to keep this blog for my own purpose. I blog to document my growth—aside from Instagram which of course is very convenient for everyone—and because I can't seem to stay away from blogging even if I tried. It's been apart of me for 10 years! Shit, that's crazy.
On a more serious note, lately I've been in such a roller coaster mood. Some days I'm completely inspired and motivated to get in the studio and other times I just want to curl up into a ball and feel discouraged. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, which is why I usually keep these feelings to myself, but it gets tough. I'm the kind of person that wants to see fast results and to get where I really want to be...but the world doesn't always work that way. I need to realize that my journey between where I am now and where I need to be is an important part of becoming the kind of artist that I dream of becoming. The process is everything.
Whether people like my work or not, I need to be my own #1 fan, because it really isn't up to anyone to keep me encouraged. I need to be proud of the work I produce and to get in the studio even if I don't feel like it. Work work work, practice practice practice. I can do this.
Okay, I gotta shake off this ugly mood. *shakeshakeshake* Back into the studio I go!