Since I could remember, I have never really been consistent with anything in my Life. I would start something and then would easily neglect it for something new. I was constantly finding something that I could really hold onto and instantly feel that I'm truly living, doing something that I love.
I knew Art was something I enjoyed since I was a little girl. I was always doodling on whatever surface I could find. As I got older, I started to feel discouraged with my Art for fear that I couldn't make a career out of it.
Society and the people I surrounded myself with back then really brought all these negative vibes and I felt that I had to abide by societies "rules" on living a successful life. But a couple years ago, I realized that if I want to live my life authentically, I shouldn't be living by ANYONE's rules. I would have to block out all of the negative shit that people (I don't care about) throw at me because I'm not living for them, I'm living for me. Working a mediocre job wasn't something I could see myself doing forever...I knew I wanted to do something that brought joy to my life. Just because most people were working regular 9-5 jobs, it didn't mean I had to. I was seeking something new and unconventional.
When I made the big decision on creating my first YouTube channel, I knew that it would take a lot of work. It took me over a year to gain a good amount of subscribers. The more feedback I got, the more motivated I was to create more content. I never thought I would be able to inspire people around the world, and now that I am, I'm just so happy that I made this decision. Putting yourself out there on YouTube for everyone to see isn't easy. I'm highly introverted and have been known as the shy one, but I've always enjoyed making videos. Incorporating my Art into the mix? An even better combo!
Along the way, I discovered Minimalism which has made a huge impact on my journey towards Creative Living. Once I got rid of the excess and all of the things that weren't serving a purpose in my life, I made plenty of room for growth, new ideas and to focus on what truly matters.
Before I end this post, I want to send this message to the Char back in college...when she was constantly questioning herself. "I'm so interested in so many aspects of art, so it's hard for me to choose which one I really want to focus on..." Well, Char of the past...8 years later, you've finally figured it out. And now that you've found it, stick to it. Be consistent. Even when you have your bad days or doubt yourself, remind yourself how long it took you to get here. When people judge you for your decisions, don't understand or don't believe in you, keep in mind that you have this amazing support system that won't leave you hanging and that YOU believe in yourself. And the fact that you're crying as you type this, I know that you're just so blessed to be where you're at today. You're living your life the way you've always wanted to, and no one can take that away from you. Keep working your ass off because it will pay off in the end. Trust in your gut. Trust in your creativity, your talent. That's what you're here for. You create because you feel whole, you create because it makes you feel alive.
Cheers to the new year. I can't wait to see what's in store for me. I'm ready, 2016!