On February 25, 2014, I posted my first YouTube video.
I remember the time before I had posted my first video. I had stopped pursuing fashion blogging and wanted to take my art seriously.
Since I was young, I’ve always loved documenting my life through video. As an 80’s baby, my family and I always had the camcorder on. My Dad would film our family road trips to SF, Las Vegas, Disneyland, and Knotts Berry Farm. My siblings, cousins and I would film skits, magic tricks, and TV shows. Those were my favorite times as a kid! Ever since then, I’ve always been that person with a camera documenting moments with loved ones.
One of the main reasons why I wanted to start a YouTube channel was to improve my communication skills. I struggled with communication growing up and felt like I couldn’t fully express myself through words. I was very soft-spoken, stuttered when excited and nervous, and words didn’t flow easily. Over the past ten years, my communication has improved immensely. Sure, I still struggle with getting my point across and get tongue-tied often, but I’m so proud of how far I’ve come. I still have a fear of being perceived, judged, and vulnerable, but as I became comfortable posting my videos online, I realized that if I gave a shit about what others thought, then I wouldn’t have been able to build a genuine community, have gained opportunities, met new friends, and inspired many people all over the world.
My YouTube channel has undergone many transformations, deaths, and rebirths. It makes sense because my channel is a Scorpio (I made my account on Nov 18, 2013), Lol. I’ve changed my content quite a lot, which confused my subscribers. I often thought that if I had stuck with a specific niche, I would’ve reached over 100,000 subscribers by now. It used to discourage me when I saw other art YouTubers reaching a big milestone, and I was here, constantly changing and questioning everything.
When I had gone through my first spiritual awakening in 2016, my perspective on making content has changed. I was no longer obsessed with wanting to be a “famous” YouTuber and having one million subscribers. Sure, it would be nice to reach one of those milestones, but as I got older, it didn’t matter anymore. I continue to make videos because I LOVE making them. I continue to show up and share my gifts with the world because I know that at least one person is inspired by it. The fact that I have a handful of people supporting me over the past 8-10 years and continuing to express their gratitude means the world to me! I learned that if you have a gift, you MUST share it. When you share that gift, you are being of service to others. And when you continue to be of service, all of that good energy comes back to you tenfold. So, don’t deprive others of your gift, because what you have to share, big or small, MATTERS. You might even change someone’s life for the better.
I’m glad I had the confidence to hit record and post my first video ten years ago. I love having visual documentation of my growth as an Artist. I may not be where I had thought I’d be, but I’ve learned to surrender and trust that my path toward my goals and true purpose will be all worth it. I’ve embraced my slow growth and the process of creating. And quite frankly, I’d rather have a lasting impact than be an overnight success.
All I know is that I’m here on this earth to share LOVE through all forms, and making videos is an extension of that. Sharing my love of life through my art and videos is what my soul loves so I will continue to do just that :)
So, cheers to ten fun years on YouTube and for many more years to come!
Also, if you’ve gotten this far, I appreciate you so very much! ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for your love and support x100000!